life

Hello, again.

So, hey…

It has been almost 3 years since I have come back to my little corner here in the blogiverse. Life has been… well… it has been a time.

Since the last time I have written here, my entire life has pretty much changed.

Life hasn’t stopped happening, it has just changed… a lot.

My blog that once brought me so much joy was something I felt like I couldn’t maintain anymore, because truly, I didn’t know what to say.

How to explain the changes in my life, the shifts in my career, friendship,  love, where I live. I didn’t know how to put on paper the enormous amount of change that was happening for me. Nor, how I would try and explain WHY I was making the choices that I was. Not that I need to.

Let’s face it, when you talk to people about your choices…most of the time they will tell you what they think. I have done too much of that in my lifetime. Worry about what other people think and have that guide the decisions I make. Too many times have I missed chances, too many times have I let things that made me unhappy appear to make me happy, too many times I didn’t choose me.

Here I am now though, telling you that I have changed in so many ways that I am not the same person I was 3 years/months/weeks ago. I am in constant evolution. I am proud of myself for where I have come from and where I am going. It hasn’t been easy. I have hit so many bumps in the road. I have felt alone for a very long time.

I thought about if I should start this blog over, what would it look like? Would it still be about food? Would it be just me getting out thoughts? Who would even read it anymore? Do I care if anyone reads it?

But something keeps pulling me back here and I have found that when that happens you need to let it. When you start fighting something that you feel deep within yourself, that is when the wheels start to fall off.

In all honesty, I am not sure where this will go, or if this will be the last post for another 3 years.

What I do what to say, is that if you come across this little corner of the internet and you see this post. I want you to know you are not alone, no matter what you are going through…there is someone out there that is going through the same thing.

So I guess, what I am meaning to say is…

Hello, again… I’m Raven.

Photograph credit Jeffrey B Photography

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